Giving and Recieving from my Innermost Heart

My finances are looking pretty skinny right now. I know I've lost a sale or two by somehow saying the wrong thing. I'm putting my work out there. People love it. But my income is scanty.

I have this desire to offer work from my innermost heart, beautiful work that will touch other hearts, that will inspire joy and deeper understanding in those who see my work. But income from my work is scanty.

Oh, I see the problem. Look at this meditation drawing I just did. See how the spirals reach out from my heart to touch other hearts? Beautiful, flowing, the way I want my work to be. Now look how my heart, in the middle, is encased in an armor with some sharp edges. My work, my offerings go out, but nothing can get back in!

What if I change that image, do a new image, showing a flow both in and out of my heart, not just reaching other hearts, but being received by other hearts? With the energy going both ways?

Better?

The Song Inside

The Song  Inside

"Singing Road" zentangle
It will be enlarged 500%
for the finished piece

I’m not a singer; people keep asking me not to sing because really, I cannot carry a tune.  But I sing. I love to sing. On the beach when no one is around, in the car when I’m driving by myself, in the house alone. I sing bits of old songs that fit my current life. I sing parts of hymns, songs of praise, made up songs, even made up words (sh, don’t tell). It’s as though the songs sing themselves inside me and sometimes burst out my mouth.

In the fall, I sing “Thank you for the glorious trees, the reds and golds, and the evergreens.” In the winter I sing,  “Thank you for the wind and rain.” When my beloved was dying, the song that sang in my mind was, “got along without you before I met you; I can get along without you now”.

I sing prayers, deep prayers without words in any known language. I sing prayers of love, songs of joy… 

I am traveling on a Singing Road.

Singing Road is the signature piece for a show of my silk paintings at the Vashon Tea Shop in February. It started several months ago as a 2 1/2" zentangle, a small ink drawing of patterns and lines with no definite purpose in mind. It isn’t finished yet, and I want to share with you the process of it’s development in this blog. 

If you would like to follow this process, please subscribe to my blog (become a follower). I will post as the painting develops.